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Psalm 131 Jacob's Psalm

What can I say when you watch your son at the gate of life and death.
Yet God speaks in that still small voice - He belongs to me - can you give him to Me.
In the middle of the storm Jesus walks on water and rescues the boys. That what I feel like
I feel like - Jesus you are so powerful- you swooped us up.
At least 6x they had to paddle his heart last night. The heart surgery was 10 + hours.
His heart was weak and tired and about to give up.
Thats when they opened him up again and he is stable on the bypass machine.
The time inbetween I kept remebering Jake's favorite Psalm 131. I read it to all the staff and doctors in the room.
Lord my HEART IS NOT PROUD.... MY EYE ARE NOT HAUGHTY...I HAVE STILLED AND QUIETED MY SOUL.........
HELP US GOD! I prayed..... and thank You for another day with Jake!
The gate for Jake ...either life with us now ..here... or heaven.
I wondered if he would say ...love you all but I am going to be with Jesus.
Another day...need a miracle...thought of Dorcus as people are praying for Jake. Thought
of Peter as he prayed for a raising from the dead! Thought Lord I am Peter raise my son up.

Last ...my devotional in Mark 14 the last days as the Christ going to the cross coming
the last supper and pray at the Mt of Olives garden. God the Father sent His Son to die and raise from the dead.
I think I undersaynad alittle better today what that means.